With the start of my battle with infertility more than 17 years behind me (yowks!) I have come to the conclusion that a large part of the pain of infertility is the loss of a dream (or of many dreams).
When I was a little girl, all I wanted to be was a mommy. I got married at 20 because I wanted to be a mommy. The first months that I waited, when I was still in school, were hard for me, because I wanted to be a mommy. And I didn't want to have just one child. I wanted a lot of kids. A big family, at least 4.
Along the way, I had other dreams - to get pregnant with just 2 people aware of the moment of conception; to just 'find out' that I was pregnant, without gnawing my nails off during the 2ww; to wheel a baby in a stroller with my big, pregnant belly in front of me...
What dreams do you (or did you) have? Were they fulfilled?
Once again, thanks to Mel for giving me a reason to have to put up a new post every day this week :-)