Friday, July 04, 2008

Knowing the future

This letter I received sums it up pretty well...

I had always thought when I decided I would get pregnant right away because I wanted to be a mother so badly and others have always said, "you will make such a great mother". I have a female partner so donor sperm is essential.I had done 2 IUI's myself and then had assistance with a Fertility center and did 3 more, without success. I also did two IVF cycles was pregnant with one for 3 weeks which felt amazing!! Now I know I can do it!! I went for a second opinion and found out that I have PCOS and the doctor and I decided together to begin a medication which is often used for women with Diabetes. I will try another cycle in 3 weeks or so.....What is the most challenging for me is not knowing if it will ever happen, it would be great to be told 'yes' and the timeline or 'no, I'm sorry but thanks for trying'...


Would you want to know how your story ends up?

3 comments:

Fertilized said...

ugh that letter hits close to home

Bea said...

Always the scary question. I'd like to hear good news, of course, but you wouldn't get to choose (saying "only if it's good" kind of spoils the surprise either way... and makes the bad news scarier for being unknown). Then again, there's a little to be said for just knowing the outcome in infertility, so you can at least move on. In the end I always shied away from wanting to know.

Bea

Sarah said...

this touches on an idea i mull over: i wonder if my next attempt will sort of be scarier because it might be more real to me now that i have seen one outcome. does that make any sense? like next time they will not just be eggs and embryos they will be all the potential of what i know can actually happen, but of course, isn't guaranteed to happen again.